i am exploring a garden that is not mine.

making friends on my way i go

avoiding some ofcourse as it is not my garden

scared of being caught i move with a elegant appearance

each time i make a friend i am on a adventure for

im scared they may not like me in this garden that is not mine

keeping my fingers crossed i go my way

im guilty as im enjoying something that is not mine by

moving in this garden.

but this is where people like me are i too want to be here

along with others . i dont want any pleasures but

at the sametime dont want to be kicked out

though for sure i will be kicked out some day……..

worried about future but still enjoying present im here

in this garden . i found a treasure that i cherished for

i was on no drive to fetch it. still found one my way

i made friends with it n enjoyed myself.

was glad to have something i cherished for.

i did tell it about me faking arnd n still the treasure is kind

i didnt want to lose this treasure though im kicked out of this garden

but………….

the treasure gave me a word that killed me.

im still in the garden but lying unconcious.

the word the treasure gave me is …….

it never supported me being in the garden!!

hearing this i cried long silent hours still with a golden mask

now the mask is very heavy for me to bear it may drop soon

i have tears soaking my heart. will my tears dry before the mask drops?

can i hold on the mask?

though this is a fact i have to face someday

my guilt swallowed me at a gulp.

trying hard to get up, dry my tears, happy that i enjoyed

the pleasure of this treasure for sometime and move on

but my tears and guilt are hunting me down

getting up again and again i am trying to move

 still in the garden im scared to move out,

waiting for time to kick me……….

dont know where i reach when kicked.

all this remaing the same till i shake hands with my fate

or a miracle of a fairy tale happens.

i shall tell you what happened after im kicked and

before i shake hands with my fate

if im left with words

waiting to be kicked ………………